I get to go home for two days! I'm so excited! I miss Oregon so much! I get to see my Steevie, and we're doing a mad bar-crawl. I can't wait!

Just realized something funny...

I could probably write a best-seller out of the last seven months of my life.

Oh yes and I forgot to put in there, I'm going back to school starting next year, and I'm gonna be a writer.

Ok, so the friend who is fixing my computer, has postponed the fixing of it for a little while. Apparently he did something stupid and his inverter is now fried. So since he doesn't have the equipment to replace that himself, and it's still under warranty, he shipped it off and it'll be back in a couple weeks. So I'm still stuck with being able to use a computer about once a week until Ryan gets his puter back.

However, I do have time to get all of my stuff out that's been happening in the last several months. And hopefully from now on I'll have more time to keep up on this. I really miss being able to attack a keyboard when I'm upset and get everything out. Writing is just not the same, since when I'm upset I write too quickly and then I can't re-read everything later on.

Ok, so back in January I had said I was leaving my husband, and I think I may have mentioned my boyfriend at that point in time...

So, yes, I left Pat, haven't filed for divorce yet, because I'm hoping I can get him to sign the divorce papers which will speed up my divorce process and save me about $300 additional bucks that I can use to pay off my portion of the approx. $4000 in debt he left me with. Which I divided up between us, and he's stuck paying everything because I'm the one in control of the divorce. BWAHAHA! His girlfriend (the one he'd been cheating on me with during our marriage) dumped him. He's trying to "be my friend" in order to get me back. He's failing miserably but it's still funny to watch him try. So that's January-March

March...

Decided I was unhappy living with my flat-mates in Wisconsin decided to move back to Spokane with my Mom. They manipulated me into staying, and then pretty much severed contact between me and her. Pat hadn't paid the bill and they wouldn't let me use thier phones very often to call her. On Easter, Jesse got killed. I was over at Jason's grandparents for dinner (it was important to him that I go regardless of my personal beliefs), and I recieved a call from David (one of my former flat-mates) saying that Jesse had had an accident in his kennel. I asked him to attach Jess to one of the runners outside, (for those who don't know, a runner is a very long leash that gets attached to a tree, pole, ect.) and I would take care of it when I got home. When we got back they were pulling out of the driveway, so I figured that they had brought Jesse back into the house, since I didn't hear him barking. This was at about 3:30. At almost 6, David texted Jason and told him to tell me to check on Jesse since he was "still outside". He wasn't there, and the chain he was "attached to" was broken. I looked high and low for him. I found out later that David had taken him into the woods and shot him, and then snapped the chain to make it look like Jesse had run away.

April...

Jason and I started having a series of very strange fights. It started because him and his mother had gotten into a massive blowout and he decided he needed to move out. I had grown tired of the way his mother treated him, so I was thrilled to see this happening. He went home to talk things over with her, and she "grounded" him for the evening. I don't know HOW a 25 year old man can get grounded but apparently they can. Needless to say, I was pissed. The next day he said something to the effect of making thigns right with his mother was more important than making things right with me, because I wasn't the one who could have him sent back to jail (if his mother kicked him out and he couldn't find another place to live he would have gone back, except it would have been state prison, not county jail). That sent us into another fight, during which I tried to end things, but David decided that it was his business to make sure we didn't break up, and talked us both down (which was amazing, considering my temper and stubborness). The next day was the fight that ended the relationship. We went into town to pick up a couple things, when his mother called and asked him to run up to her friends house to get something. So since there was so much tension between his mother and me, I elected to stay in the car and wait for him. After about 20 mintues, he came out and said Deb wanted to talk to me. I told him I didn't think that was a good idea, considering that she was his mother's best friend. I was given the choice of either I go in or she comes out. Since it was freezing outside I said fine, I'll go in, but if she starts in on me I'm out. She started out with being all nice and sweet. Then she started in on telling me to make nice with Cindy (Jason's mother). I told her that I had already told Jason that I had no problem playing nice, that it was Cindy who had the issue with me, so whatever. Then she started attacking me, and Jason just SAT THERE. First off, I do not take kindly to being verbally assaulted, and second of all, if it's my boyfriend's mother's friend who's doing it in front of my boyfriend, he should bloody well know to stand up for me! But did Jason? NO. He bloody sat there and LET HER! So I left. He talked me into getting in the car, but I was so pissed I made him call David, and let me out of the car. As I was getting out, he told me it was over. The next day, while I was out walking Tim, Sarah and David packed up all of  my stuff, and when I got back, they informed me that I was going back to my Mom's. Then he told me that Tim and Isis would be following me the next day, and would arrive a few hours before I would. Bold-faced lie. Two days after my birthday I found out that they had "left the door open" and Isis had "snuck outside". Since I know they hated her, I wouldn't be surprised to find out if they had just thrown her outside to die in the cold as well.

Spokane...

Two weeks after moving here I got an amazing job at Barnes & Noble in the cafe. I'm making friends, and I'm finally completely over Jason, and maybe soon I'll be ready to date again.

That's my last seven months in a nut-shell. I promise I'll start posting when I come down to the library to check my email. I really miss being able to vent everything out quickly and easily.

Hey everyone, I'm sort-of back online. I'm getting my computer fixed next week, so in a couple more weeks I should have net again! After I do I promise I'll be more active on here again.

Alot has happened in the past few months, and as soon as I get my puter up and running again and get net set up I'll write a nice long post about it all.

Til then.

Sorry I've been MIA these last couple of months, things have been really crazy. I finally figured out the reason why I've been so moody and depressed. I have never been truely happy in my marriage. So to make a long story short, I've left my husband and moved in with my sister in Wisconsin. I finally realized that this relationship was never really meant to be, and that I've never been happy in it. And I finally have the strength to leave. I'm filing as soon as my stuff and animals are out of there. For the first time in a VERY long time I'm actually happy.

There is one issue though...

My soon to be ex knows how to get into my head and manipulate my thoughts to get his way. I need to block him and I don't know how. Does anyone know how to block someone from getting into your head? I'm willing to try anything at this point, I just need to block him so I an move on with my life.